To my friend in the woods...

You called yesterday and it wasn't until today that I saw the missed call!

Why is it that we have this cyclic relationship?

Should I call you?

Should I?

Will we finally get together this time?

I'm afraid...

Maybe I should tell your blogger friend that I want to talk to you.

Maybe I shouldn't.

Too late, he reads my blog, but he doesn't know I'm talking about him or you.

Where will this all end?

Last week I promised myself the past would be the past and I wouldn't look back on it, and suddenly out of nowhere you call...

Does this mean anything?

Are the "Powers That Be" against me?

I don't want to lose my time anymore.

I need to settle down.

I need to stop running away.

I need to face myself.

I need to face life.

I need to embrace it.

I need to let go of all the issues.

I need to let go of all the fear.

Will it be with you?

Have things changed?

Today someone told me he wanted to introduce me to a friend of his.

I'm open.

I need someone new in my life.

I need to let go of all the ghosts.

I need to stop living on the past.

I want the future.

I need the future.

Why do you call then?

Am I destined to be tied to the past?

I don't want to!

I don't want complications, I don't want issues, I don't want secrets, I don't want lies, I want to keep my promises and promises to be kept from the other end as well.

I need someone who wants the same things as I.

I'm almost sure we're not on the same page.

You need to live.

I have lived.

I need security.

I need to know that someone will be there.

I need so many things I know you don't want to give me, or maybe you can't.

I can't go thru this one more time.

I need security.

I need peace of body and mind.

Maybe, I won't call back...

Not maybe, I just won't call back...